depressed...

I've been depressed since my female employer told me that the processing of my papers here in Spain is impossible at the moment even if we transfer the processing in Barcelona where her mother and the in-laws live coz their zones are also close for processing. I just don't know whether I should wait for the arraigo or just go home. Both have their own negative and positive sides and I just can't decide which one is better. Been thinking about a lot of things and options lately and getting an online degree is just one of them. Sounds like a good diversion to my boring routinary schedule. I've already surfed some online schools and I find Western Governors University (WGU) promising. WGU was founded by the governors of 19 U.S. states and is also supported by over 20 major corporations and foundations who believe in their commitment to producing highly competent graduates. And if ever I decide to pursue a masters degree online, I'll give the business field a try for a change from the usual health and science interest. And besides, a business degree will come handy with my plan if putting up a small business in my hometown one day. :)

a cup of tea...

I still have to drink my last cup of tea for the day before going to bed and I'll do my best to sleep before 1am. The sleeping habit needs restructuring really coz it's so bad right now. I go to bed so late and wake up before the alarm rings. But despite the short sleep, I am not that tired in the morning. But I know the routine has to stop so soon to keep the body healthy. If the sleeping habit wouldn't improve next month, then I guess it's time for me to buy an over the counter sleeping pill as to ensure a longer sleep. Let's see!

aching eyes...

My eyes are really aching now and I am so sleepy already. And I really need to go to bed so soon to make up for the few hours of sleep during the weekend. We brought the kids to the pedia coz they have cough and while waiting for them to finish, I was so sleepy in the waiting area and my eyes were hurting like crazy and my stomach was also so bad that I felt like vomiting. grrrrrrrrrr. I have to be serious in sleeping a bit early, if not, I'll end up sick.:(

bad stomach...

The 2-year old boy that I'm taking care of is here in the house today. He didn't go to school coz he's having a bad stomach. :( In the morning, the mother asked me to bring a plastic bag and when I came she and the boy were in the toilet. The boy made "kaka" in his pants and it was liquid. The mother went outside almost vomiting, while I didn't badge cleaning the mess, hehehe. Anyways, I put the boy for his nap at 1pm coz he was so tired, he kept on waking up the entire night and we end up sleepless as well. And everytime he makes "peepee", there's always a liquid thing coming out from his anus and he's screaming coz it hurts. Poor boy! Hope he'll get well so soon. I'm taking a nap too after checking out the best muscle supplements at bestmusclessupplements.org.

hair, please grow faster...

I was looking at old pictures during my Denmark days lastnight and after seeing this photo, I suddenly wish for my hair to grow faster, so I can have a very long hair once again, just like the one I had in the photo. I'm really excited to have a very long hair again, so I can experiment new hair styles with it. :) Aww, so I can bother the ates to experiment new hair styles with it, hehehe. And the curling machine that I got from Ate Carol will be so useful with a longer hair.

But I so think that the hair is growing slower compared before. Or maybe it's just me being impatient that I haven't notice the fast growth. Please hair, grow faster so I won't resort to using hair growth shampoo. Hear me out hair!

2am...

Arggggggggg, I went to bed at 2am lastnight coz I got carried away "facebooking" and I was disappointed for doing so even if I know already that it's not good for my health to always sleep so late. Tonight, I'm not going to do it anymore and I really need to be fierce to myself when it comes to my sleeping schedule. Yeah, gotta be fierce, just like ANTM models! heheheh

Dry skin...

Me and the ates are all having dry skin since the start of winter and it's irritating us. I put lotion to my skin everyday and since the winter, been putting more lotion into my arms coz they're so dry that the skin gets flaky! Yuckss!!! I so hate it coz I'm not used to having this dry skin. I don't have it during my Denmark and Norway days and to think that it's colder there than here in BCN. It came to my mind that maybe it's because I'm always wearing a jacket here while working, so the arms are not getting enough air to freshen the skin. So now, I seldom wear the jacket when I'm inside the house. I bought a body oil about 2 months ago and applied it every night especially to my arms to moisturize the dry skin. But before I bought the body oil, I showed my arms to one of my ates and she said that it might be eczema. Ohhh my, I was truly horrified that I applied excessive amount of oil to my arms since then. And thanks goodness, the body oil works and the skin in my arms are no longer flaky and it's not eczema at all. If it was, I would have gone to sleep weeping about it. :)

waking up automatically....

I slept on Saturday at around 1am and out the alarm for 11am, so I'll have enough time for our 12:30 appointment at the Church. We have to go early to prepare the venue for our 1:30pm CLS. But so weird and I already woke up at 9am, 2 hours before the alarm and wasn't able to go back to sleep anymore. It seems that the system is no longer used to sleeping longer, so it automatically wakes up after 6 to 8 hours of sleeping. Actually, 8 hours of sleep is already so long for me. For the past week, I always get up at around 6am even if the alarm is set for 7:40am. grrrrrrrr. I know, it's not normal and I have to try my best to make the sleeping habit normal once again. I'll be sleeping in a little while. I'll just make a new note on my fb account and then I'll doze off. But before doing so, I'll check first the cool exit signs at exitsignwarehouse.com. I already looked at some of the designs earlier, but I'll look at the rest before finally going back to facebooking. :)

fruits instead of toasted bread...

About a month ago, I always buy integral toasted bread (low fat and low carb) every weekend and I bring it to my employer's place for the working days. But I changed plan. So on Saturday, I bought fruits (apple and plum) instead of toasted bread coz it's healthier. And I'll be eating one fruit a day at around 11am, about an hour before I'll take my first cup of tea for the day.

Ohh, let me tell you a story. I was so hungry at around 7pm this evening that I got so weak and was scared that I'll collapse while making the food for the children. I keep on wating small pieces of bread to regain the weakness. I was still so hungry and glad that I didn't pass out while working. If Ii'll experience the same tomorrow, then I'll device a plan to prevent the hunger strike from occuring at 7pm. :)

pigging out...

I went to the children's school yesterday with my employer and we went there early coz she has a meeting with the eldest child's teacher. I went to buy fish for dinner and I brought my book along, so I can read something while waiting for the time to pick up the boy. I also brought some money to buy some stuffs at the grocery store nearby. And I ended up buying biscuits and nuts with honey (with high fats and carbo contentes, argggg)! And here I am in my room, eating the junks while blogging. And I am so disappointed, how I wish the barcode scanner didn't read the items well, so they made a sound on my way out of the store, so some people will stop me and just decide to return the items.. Now, the junks are almost gone and the stomach is feeling bloated. grrrrrrrrrrrr!

Summer house....

We are going to the summer house in Calafel this afternoon. The house there is huge and we haven't been there for about 4 months now, so it means that it's so dusty and dirty. :( I just hope my runny nose won't get worse there. The employers said that we'll go to the winter house within this month and it will be our last visit there. Yeheyyy!

a new vacuum flask

Few months after I started drinking tea here in my employer's place, it came to mind the want of buying a vacuum flask or a thermos, so I can make my tea earlier to make sure that I'll make the tea before the they put the alarm on. But I always set aside the plan coz I was busy buying clothes, shoes, bags, etc!hehehe. Yeah, I'm a shopaholic, but I'm already slowing down now.:)

Yesterday, during my day off, I didn't go shopping, but instead I went to the store where the vacuum flask that I've been eyeing for for months already is displayed. I bought the 500ml version and I already started using it now. I already made my tea for the night and I'll drink it after checking the life insurance link at lifeinsuranceagency.com.

breaking the diet...

Almost every Sunday, the diet is abandoned since we have an ongoing seminar in out CFC FFL community and there's a free lunch being served every session. I always gave in to the delicious meal on the table, but atleast the food I consume in every meal is not just like my huge consumption before. It's just a little bit more than the usual portion that I'm having on weekdays. But it's ok coz I am still aware that I have a goal of losing weight.