weight check....

I haven't check my weight for so long now and maybe one of the reasons is that I am just scared to find out that I really gained weight. huhuhuhuh. The ates said that I don't look like I gained weight, but I have a feeling that I'm having a weight gain and I am really hoping that I am wrong about it. The boyfriend is coming in September and I don't want to get bigger. If it will happen, then I think it's really time for me to take diet pills even if I don't like to. But the bf has already assured me though, that fat or fatter, he'll always love me.:)